Erik (eriktrips) wrote,

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new blog post and stuff

I've posted a new blog entry finally. things languish over there but occasionally I find it within me to write something like a full essay. you know what though? writing hurts. even writing poetry hurts. I can't explain it beyond that. well, except to add that we have an obvious pleasure-pain circuit going here.

I was going to put other news here under the cut, but there isn't a whole lot. I am still more depressed than I should be but I do have an appointment with a psychiatrist next week. not this week. the irony is that I will be meeting with my psychiatrist of many years ago, the one who would only prescribe me enough klonopin to make me feel very anxious about taking it. we will have a discussion. I don't intend to stop taking it but hopefully he will be happy to note that I've never had to increase my dose. he told me I would if I started taking it daily. it's always fun to tell a shrink that they were wrong.

I've boosted my prozac dose on my own, back up to 80mg/day. we'll see if it makes any difference by the time I meet with my psych. I have a small surplus, but some of it is expired and I think some of it is so expired that it is no longer effective. I have empirical data to show this.

I am trying to teach myself the guitar fretboard with blues scales. it's interesting trying to make a 47-year-old brain do rote memorization. actually it doesn't work at all, which is why I'm not just making flashcards: the scales show me where the patterns are, and patterns I do well with. but if you ask me what note I'd be playing if I fingered the second string at the tenth fret, well, I'd have to get back to you. it might be G. or F#. no I will have to get back to you.

that's about all that's fit for public consumption. there may be more for those who know the secret handshake, but I'm going to play some scales first.

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