so Nan actually called me today because when her office mate said "tomorrow" it was actually saturday night and so "tomorrow" was today which is just as well I didn't quite catch right away otherwise I'd have been waiting with bated breath all day and instead I was just mostly relieved.
anyway so she has been sick and she's going to be fine and I even think I was able to hear that on most levels maybe excepting the one that never believes anything it is told and is always preparing the rest of us for the world ending which probably would happen tomorrow if it had any say in the matter.
I am still not terribly well-integrated. Nan and I have lots to talk about when I get back. I'm a never-ending font of psychotherapy material.
at least therapy is rarely boring.
so now the deal is that I leave early tuesday morning for Seattle and between now and then I must do a little cleaning and arranging so that Sandy can take care of the cats without being completely appalled by the state of my room, which is where they eat.
I had a very significant dream this evening. when I write them down they always become somewhat laughable so I don't know if I'll write this one down. I remember my dreams better than Freud remembered his, apparently--if what he had to say about dream memories is any indication of how his dreams receded from his reach very quickly. mine linger for days, months, sometimes years. this one had kind of a plot but was not good enough to be a sci-fi film--I've had those, but this was just a passion play between various parts of my personality and they all played their roles so perfectly that it was easy to recognize them upon waking.
I only slept for six hours and my shot is due so I am going to need a) my shot and b) some naps tonight. I meant to move towards a more diurnal pattern but by noon today I was exhausted and still I didn't make it to bed till 3pm. I've been up about an hour now. time flies.
I also have to decide what clothes to take. lisagail has her own washer/dryer so I don't have to take clean ones if I don't want. I need to check the forecast as weather is completely unpredictably everywhere now, even in Seattle where it still rains a lot but it's been warm there apparently.
food. shot. nap. in that order. I'm sleepy already and probably could just go back to bed but I'll sleep in my chair instead. but first my shot so as to get some testosterone in my system so that I don't completely poop out over the next 24 hours.
life is.. interesting.