last night around 7pm I was telling myself that I'd better hurry and get up to bed before I fell asleep. I was not successful: I slept till about 11 and then woke up in my chair and thought ok now I will go to bed and the next thing I know I am waking up and checking my watch to see if it is, like, 2am--but it's 5:30! and I've slept sitting upright in my chair the whole time.

I am not exactly "rested." but I am at Philz with my $3 cup of rocketfuel to see how it affects me. it will either get me going for a few hours or send me running back to bed before I embarrass myself snoring in public.



on my way back, whether alert or somnolent, I have to pick up some food and a red pen. I forgot to stop at office depot yesterday to find one but I am probably not walking down there this morning with my computer on my back. I may, though, stop at home to put it down and then keep going. it will add half a mile to my walk but that's not necessarily a bad thing.

but however I procure the pen I will probably need a nap to get up to self-editing capacity. Lyn was telling me about one writer who rewrote his book three times before letting her publish it. I promised that I would rewrite very little. I'll have to see what I think of the last piece since I added it almost immediately after writing it and that is sometimes not a good idea. the rest of it is done. the only thing I have to add is the dedication, which is a secret until.. I decide to make it unsecret or it is published, whichever comes first.

I would swing by walgreen's to peruse their office supplies but that's another block out of my way from the grocery store. one has to plan carefully when walking especially if one spent the night sitting upright in a chair. I noticed yesterday when I picked up my meds that the walgreen's at van ness and market has these lumbar support thingees that you put in your office chair or car seat and they are only $4 and look pretty snazzy with their mesh covering. I might buy one--I sit very short because my legs are long but my spine is all squishy curvy so my body does not fill up a chair well enough to take advantage of built-in ergonomics, if any. I've been putting a pillow between the small of my back and the chair when sleeping on purpose, but when I fall asleep spontaneously there is no time for a pillow. the pillow is big enough that it pushes me out of the chair when I am just sitting and trying to work so I remove it for that. I think a support that stayed put might be worth $4.

wow it is getting busy in here. must be the people that have to be at work at 8am. look at me living the life of leisure. I like working at night. :)

two thirds of the way through my coffee and I can feel myself riding the thin edge between wired and narcoleptic. I bet most of you don't know that, like many pairs of so-called opposites, these two circle back and meet each other where we don't usually think to look. I'm beginning to remember what it was like to drink coffee to try to keep the speed from wearing off--this coffee is good I'm telling you. a klonopin might give me a poor-man's speedball.

or it might knock me out. I will wait till I'm home for good to find out.

see I really have nothing to say. aren't you glad I decided to come back?