a male politically-correct hipster who works as a sommelier but does not eat cream cheese. I make Best of the Year lists every January based predominantly on feeling and think that world hunger could be assuaged with four-part harmonies. I can start a fire and then sit by it having a transcendental experience and in fact do this quite often. Somehow, I am also a woman who teaches high school English with an undergrad degree, which is probably why I am so good at crosswords. And yet I went to art school after trying it out at a public university.
I may be a politically correct hipster, I suppose, although I no longer go out drinking on weekends and have the physical stamina only to see bands playing at venues with available chairs. and the whole "politically correct" epithet has gotten so completely out of hand that it is now a parody of a parody of itself and doesn't really mean anything anymore. I did go to art school, and maybe it was the Art History class I took at Emory that tipped the scale in favor of art to the detriment of science. I don't really like crosswords.
so I am home alone for the holiday and trying to come up with something to do tomorrow to keep from sitting here being alone on xxxxxxmas but I'm not really interested in going somewhere with lots of people like a movie theater. I was hoping that there was ferry service to Angel Island tomorrow but there's not; there's not ferry service to anywhere that I can ascertain. depending upon when I am awake, I might just take a sunrise hike up Twin Peaks and then take myself out to breakfast at whatever place is open. I bet the Pork Store will be open. they are fairly reliable for holidays. if not, there may be a restaurant in the Castro that is open, although all of the homey little "here's where you go when you cannot go home" diners have pretty much closed up there. I could probably get a drink somewhere if I wanted one though.
I think the high rent drove the diners away; there are still plenty of queer orphans. The San Francisco Zen Center is closed, which I think is ass backwards but whatever. The Buddhist Center around the corner is closed from now till Jan 2. I don't quite understand why the Buddhists close for Christian holidays; not that there are no Christians who practice zazen, but I somehow doubt they are the majority. and I know that this holiday is not inherently Christian but in the US it is difficult to escape the overwhelmingly Christian point of reference from which our culture approaches it. even in San Francisco and Seattle you hear xxxxxxmas carols everywhere you go.
maybe I should go and walk across the Golden Gate Bridge. no this is not a veiled suicide threat; I actually do want to walk all the way across it and back in one piece, but I've never gotten around to doing it. I have become more afraid of heights as I get older, but I think I could refrain from panicking in the middle of it. I suppose one could always hitch a ride off the bridge if it got to be too much.
beyond something to do early in the day I think I might just stay home and read. I mean, it's a holiday. I should get to do what I want and generally these days I want to read, write, or play guitar. occasionally I'll draw something or take my camera out for more of my "empty city" photography in which I studiously avoid taking people's pictures because I think it is kind of rude to do so without their permission but I am too shy to ask anyone's permission.
I do have three papers to edit between now and tomorrow night. am trying to convince myself to do at least two of them today, if not all three. wish me good luck with that. I rarely get these things done in advance but maybe this once I will be able to get the unpleasantness out of the way early.
no I don't really have much to say other than "hi." hi!
I think I feel a nap coming on.