anyway. I don't know how much they will give a single person with no dependents but anything would help quite a bit. food is my main expense and the food here is not cheap. it'd be cheaper if I cooked for myself, and I might have to start doing so soon. I bought a canister of soy-based textured vegetable protein the other day on a whim and now I have some rice to go with it so I might start with that. the "pork" has no MSG. I was a bit surprised. on the other hand, it has sesame seeds in it which are not listed in the ingredients so I don't know if I can really trust the ingredients list on the label.
but so this post started out because I am waiting for an email answer but also slowly falling asleep--and I expect that to accelerate soon. I might crawl up to my bed and sleep up there for a little while. I sleep more deeply lying down even though I cannot breathe sometimes. but I also wake up in a fair amount of pain which is unpleasant. I will wake up on my back with lumbar region and at least one sciatic nerve throbbing and be unable to move out of this extremely painful position for several minutes, breathing slowly and saying ow. ow. ow. if I can get myself over onto my side I'm ok but that part is not easy. it could be that, at two years to 50, I need a real bed. I have no place to put one, unfortunately. I could get a twin-sized mattress but as it is I sleep diagonally on my full-sized futon because my feet hang over the end otherwise. why have beds in the US not gotten longer as the population has gotten taller? I know queen and king mattresses are longer, but why are twin and double beds still the same length as they were however many years ago that we started mass-producing them? maybe they aren't the same length. maybe they have gotten longer. but not since about 1955 or so.
I wonder if there is such a thing as an extra-long twin-sized mattress. I know I could look on the web but there is not much reason to. having no money and all. I could look on freecycle but a bed is one of those things you sort of want to have only been yours. kind of like underwear or towels. of course, you never know when someone might be trying to get rid of something new or nearly so.
no I can't think of anything more exciting to write about. I definitely need at least a nap if not a good solid eight hours. I think it is time to work on that.