April 29th, 2002


paper weight

the credenza is overflowing with mail and about half of the huge pile belongs to me. the stuff on the bottom is at least two months old. i do know that i resolved to go through it all when i got back from seattle and that was one month ago and of course i haven't done it yet. every time i pick up an envelope and look at it trying to decide whether to open it or toss it or open it and then toss it or tear it in two and then toss it or put it on the more modest pile on my desk which has all of this year's credit card statements in it it just seems way too hard so i put the envelope back.

once a month i rummage through it to get the latest credit card bills so i know how much i owe.

there are magazines in there that could go in the bathroom reading bin to replace the ones we've all memorized. there might even be catalogs. and there could be another credit card i applied for because it is easier to apply for new credit cards than it is to change your name on your old ones.

yes i am still in the middle of changing my name. it's been five and a half years now. soon i can get a passport in the new name which is no longer new and then no one can question who i am. do they send your passport to you in the mail? i would probably be some months in noticing it was there.

notice how i am avoiding talking about the stacks of unread books on my desk.
  • Current Mood
    apathetic apathetic
mutts shadow

whoa! whooooaaah!

it's like holding onto a firehose. by yourself. with it turned on all the way.

it's like all the little men in my head are scavenging about for something to seize upon and chew up and dog only knows if it will be good for me or not.

tomorrow could be a really good day or a really bad one.
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    my morning jacket