August 6th, 2002

mutts earl

chapter two

now what. here is the list:

volunteer at spca.
lift weights.
keep walking.
drink less beer.
get tooth fixed.
shelve books. there are many many books to shelve so this will take some time.
file insurance claim before time runs out.
get tattoo.
play guitar.
play bass.
play with drum machine.
sing loudly in shower to strengthen voice.
write songs.
buy or rig storage for 100 cds and hang it in the air somewhere in here. if you've seen my room you understand.
finish painting door.
sand doorknob and reattach to door.
install OS 9.2
research OS X and install on one hard drive if indicated.
research USB/firewire cards, CD-RW drives and web cams.
transcribe train writing into cupboard.
straighten out memoir.
continue transsexual in san francisco story even if hackneyed.
consolidate above three into autobiography, find agent, hawk book.
do school paperwork.
read books on American Lit list that i didn't get to before exams.
re-read the Stein most likely to be used in dissertation.
think about Deleuze and Levinas and Stein and cowboy and indian narratives.
write prospectus.
plan winter trip, find funds, reserve car rental or train ticket.

looks like i should be busy for awhile. of course first i must play a few games of computer solitaire.
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nancy fight

beware: therapy

so i go to therapy this morning and my therapist doesn't show up. i am not even sure i was there at the right time but i had called ahead to make sure and not heard back but it seems that sometimes she doesn't get her messages so i left her another one and haven't heard back yet and wonder where she is.

i'm not particularly unstable and therapy isn't particularly crucial at this moment in time but i do have that paranoia that people who are important to me are going to disappear and this sort of thing feeds that paranoia and thus the situation produces its own anxiety where i felt just fine before.

probably this fourth cup of coffee isn't helping.
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nancy fight


when the west nile virus comes to california i will be the first to contract it. every night i am attacked by squadrons of mosquitoes. i don't know where the stagnant water is that must be their nursery but i'm thinking of complaining to the landlord. i mean they must be coming from somewhere nearby. otherwise they'd fly in someone else's window.
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