March 17th, 2003


slumming it

i'm in this yuppie hotel. we all remember yuppies. i guess really it's a dot-com hotel since yuppies are like so 80s.

anyway it is full of cheap luxurious touches like fake gold-gilded frames around the mirrors and a million pillow shams on the bed. there are video games to order on the tv and an ethernet connection that costs only 9.95 a day but instead i have plugged my computer into the phone and am using the hopefully free dialup numbers from my dsl isp.

i feel completely out of place here. it fairly screams expense account which i have despaired of ever actually having.

i hid my wallet chain while checking in. but i was treated well even in my tshirt and flannel and work boots. this time of year they are probably just happy to have someone in the room even if they are paying as little as i am.

but i have to say that sitting here in a hotel with my laptop is making me feel unduly grown up.

i am going to be sixty before i realize i am an adult. is this common?
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but so i'm back from the ocean visiting grandma. it was cool to sit around with that portion of the family that can deal with me. we even talked a little about the intricacies of presenting yourself to the world once you have switched genders. usually we don't talk about it.

also we talked about impending war and now they all know i am against it. who would have guessed this shy young thing would ever risk an affront to the elders but my family is so soft-spoken and so eager to avoid conflict that one can say just about anything without fear of reprimand. i hadn't realized this before. apparently we all sit around thinking how dangerous it might be to say something without realizing that all the rest of us are thinking the same thing and thus we could get away with saying almost anything because no one has the wherewithal to contradict anyone else.

it's weird hanging out with people who share your genetic makeup.
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