April 28th, 2004


line of duty

so the fog came in so there is a cool westerly breeze coming in through my window so this morning I go to shut it from wide open to only slightly open so I remove the two by four that holds the window up because it is one of those old 100-pound windows for which the counterweights broke long long ago and since it has been painted over a hundred million times the window sticks in the up position so I give it a little tug and it doesn't move so I reach down to the two by four for a reason I don't even remember now and suddenly the window comes undone and slams down on my little finger with all it's 100-pound mass times velocity momentum.


I don't think it is broken (if it was broken you'd be screaming!) because it doesn't hurt too much which really surprises me because the window is fucking heavy and hit my finger fucking hard but two things cause me concern and that is 1) I'm already on a low dose of painkillers :/ and 2) the swollen area that sustained most of the impact is actually numb. so for all I know it hurts like a son of a bitch and I just can't tell. it's not bent or anything though. seems still to point in the direction it did before.

I have a package coming from FedEx today so wanted to hang around the house. after it gets here I will either go to Walgreen's and get a little splint or to the hospital and get whatever more than that it seems I need by then.

stupid window.
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this just in

in other less painful but potentially more embarrassing news, I'm reading tonight. it will be all of five minutes and I will be sharing the mic with countless others (well. at least six.) but I've never read my abstract artistique prose to an audience expecting politically savvy tranny narrative before. I have to figure out what to read. I have to figure out what to read that will make me happy but not be so left field as to leave them scratching their heads or spitting on me or anything like that.

and what to wear. that of course is the most important question.

if you are wandering around the city with nothing else to do this evening, stop by Eros on Market across the street from the Castro Safeway around 7pm.
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mutts earl


the reading was fun and now I want to stay up all night and write but I have to get up early so off to bed with me.

my friends say they liked my work. will try to believe they are not saying this just because they are my friends.
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