June 9th, 2004

hat

back stretch

I have one paper left to grade.

why is that finishing anything is like death to me? that is before I am finished I simply cannot imagine being finished and so that beyond finishing is mysterious and unreachable and thus just like death. this also makes it very difficult to pick up and finish that one last thing I have to do. just one more! one more! and then oh gods I don't know what might happen!

this has been a pattern of mine for a very long time.
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