November 3rd, 2004

nancy fight


going to bed at midnight because I could see the ohio question wasn't going to be resolved before dawn I fantasized that when I woke up a bunch of kerry ballots would have been found in many of the little red states turning then into little blue states but alas.

do you suppose there will be litigation regarding the ohio vote? I am thinking we shouldn't give up just yet but the good feeling I had about this election evaporated last night and I am still in shock. I swear to god if the Giants had won the World Series a couple of years ago we'd still be in the correct universe but obviously something needs to be done to get out us out of this parallel realm where all goes oppositely of how it should. I had some hope after the Red Sox won but I think it was just a rent in the time-space continuum and not a full recovery.

I wonder sometimes how forward-thinking germans felt as hitler rose to power. or were there any forward-thinking germans. if so did they wake up every morning telling themselves this can't be happening how do I get back to Normal Land?

the one consolation is that the left coast spoke with a fairly unified voice and I think staying here and erecting razor-wire borders might be a good thing. then we could grow our marijuana and keep the forest service from chopping down all the trees and set our own clean air and water standards and all our soldiers could stay home and we could provide a decent standard of living for all and not just the gregarious and ruthless profit-seekers.

I have to do work today. I do not want to.
  • Current Mood
    angry angry


I see Kerry has conceded Ohio.

I am officially and irretrievably depressed.
  • Current Mood
    crushed crushed

report from lower cascadia

the ride in on BART was suitably grim. people stared into space, not talking. for all I know they do this everyday and I was projecting but either way the ride was grim.

am dutifully sitting office hours but figuring no one else will be able to talk about school either but who knows. there are protests going on in the city or at least there were. I'm still at a loss but am considering mustering a militia for the west coast in case things get ugly.

yeah we boys always think guns are the best solution don't we. it's that black and white thing: kill it and you won't have to worry about having to compromise with it.

really though there should be some sort of left-coast pact drawn up. no to theocracy and no to war as first resort. I'd write it but I'm really tired and depressed right now. maybe later.

my friend Felipe is going to write an essay on George Bush and the Rise of American Fascism.

I mean what the fuck can we do but keep shouting at them?

  • Current Music
    Dirty Three - Everythings's Fucked

dusk to dawn

it's 6pm and I'm wondering just how I'm going to get from now till bedtime. of course one option is to make bedtime 6:30pm which I have not entirely ruled out yet. I can't bear to watch the evening news and am wondering if which of the Simpsons or South Park would make for better company. I've had two beers and that was enough to figure out they weren't really what I wanted. I am alone and although I could call someone what I really want to do is sit silent and glum and the phone isn't the best medium for that.

as the time wears on I just get more depressed which isn't exactly atypical for me but I didn't expect to feel this bad for so many hours. why this morning I took books with me to school thinking I might read them after class but instead I sat in my office listening to gloomy music through my little laptop speakers. no one at school knew quite what to say but we carried on.

I haven't felt this shellshocked in a long time. I have no idea what to do now.
  • Current Music
    Mission of Burma - What We Really Were