June 4th, 2005



one day off was not enough.

I have papers to grade freshly emailed in this morning. I've done two. there are only fourteen. I have until Tuesday. could I stop now? I want more playtime!

and my stomach hurts. I don't know why except I've eaten more fruit than normal the last couple of days because other things are looking slightly gross just lately. it doesn't hurt that badly. just enough to be noticeable.

suppose I took the rest of the day for myself and promised to dig in tomorrow and monday. suppose I did that. I wonder if tomorrow I would feel any more like working.

well I couldn't possibly feel any less like working.

my cat is depressed. I'm sure the codeine is keeping him sedate but it depresses me to see him so still. he usually runs around like a little demon and now he is just lying there looking like he'd really like to feel better. I don't know what to do for him other than let him be.

it would be nice to sit here with a book that demanded no special brainpower.

  • Current Music
    Snow Patrol - When It's All Over We Still Have To Clear Up

cat report

he woke from his opium-induced slumber to eat a little and purr so I think he is going to be ok. still won't put weight on his left front foot but they assure me nothing is broken or torn so he must have jammed his little fingers or something.

so I feel somewhat better myself although am not into the burrito tonight. which itself might be cause for great alarm but in a little while I am going to go to the store to see what sort of relatively bland food might be on offer. I don't do bland very often so I am not sure how to approach it. should I get a potato? a loaf of bread? maybe all I really want is a bowl of cereal. that can be enormously soothing all on its own.

the question is what exactly to do with the rest of the afternoon and evening. there are a number of things I could learn most of them having to do with computers or guitars. will it be photoshop or windows xp? I know some about both of these but I can't, for instance, create a polished metal texture at will or guess under which of fifteen million preference panes a particular setting might be. something tells me that a book could help me with the former but that for the latter there is no method precisely because there is no method.
  • Current Music
    Aereogramme - In Gratitude