August 10th, 2005


alarm malfunction

this morning instead of gently waking me up the clock radio alarm infiltrated my dream so for 15 minutes I was trying to figure out how to wake up because I knew the alarm was going off but I kept dreaming that I had opened my eyes but because I could not remember where I had fallen asleep the night before I could never figure out if I was truly awake yet. I awoke in a tent with the wind blowing and my stocking cap pulled down over my eyes and a awoke in the driveway of a park of some kind in just a sleeping bag and it was beginning to snow so both of those caused me some panic as I was afraid if I didn't wake up for real I was either going to suffocate or freeze to death, respectively. I awoke in a place resembling my grandmother's old house's basement, and I awoke as I was walking around some added wing to some other house trying to find where I had slept the night before and having no luck as the wing was made entirely of bedrooms which for some reason were all full of guests.

finally I decided to relax and within a couple of minutes I actually woke up. the interesting thing is that as soon as I wake up for real I know immediately that I've finally hit reality whereas in all the other scenarios I wander around trying to figure out if I'm awake yet. but this one fact has not yet filtered its way down into my unconscious I guess because if it did this whole motif would have no psychic power.

it was slightly unpleasant although I have learned not to panic in these situations and that I cannot force myself awake no matter how I try--the only way to wake up is to relax my way out of my dream.

so here I am. I think.
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mutts earl

bon voyage

the chair is on its way to oregon. I hope the person who bought it puts it to good use; she got deal tell you what. Jackson is going to have to find another place to perch in the hallway. when I got the box out into the sunshine I saw hundreds of tiny holes made by little batting claws. as a bonus I'm sure she will be receiving lots of cat hair too. hope she's not allergic.

now I will package and ship the other things I have here to ship. if you are waiting for something from me, today is the day! that is it will leave today. who knows when you will receive it.

this is kind of fun in a way. I wouldn't mind having a little ebay business going like Sandy does: I think she buys odd things in bulk and then sells them individually on ebay. like old bowie videos and xmen dvds and stuff like that.

on the other hand I would be spending every morning taping and shipping when I should be spending them writing and writing.

ok let's see if I can actually get labels to print right. oh this is exciting.
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    busy busy

this might actually be helpful

they didn't have a little cup of tea with which to count down so a balloon for "high as a kite" will have to do.

what. I should be writing instead of poking around the web?

edit: those silly people. always assuming you use white for your background.
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    thoughtful inspired