September 19th, 2005


two down

I think class went ok. it is hard to tell because I had five pages of lecture notes of which I got through approximately two which I kind of figured would happen but one of these days I will learn to stop overpreparing. as is I took up too much time and we did not have as much time for discussion as I would have liked although we did talk a little about what I was saying that Plato was saying so it's not like I droned on the whole time uninterrupted.

as always things came up that I thought of answers for just moments ago so I guess I have some things to reiterate next week but this is the part about being an introvert that drives me insane: the inability to think on my feet in a social situation. I'm great at pontificating off the cuff in the comfort and safety of my bedroom but when in front of people I am putting all my energy into remaining upright and alert and can't seem to get the wits aroused to the point of being able to say what I think extemporaneously. this seems a bit of a handicap for a teacher but maybe I can get around it by offering long reviews at the beginning of each class.

but for the most part it was not overly painful but I can't seem to let go of a couple of things that were said that I did not feel adequate to respond to in the moment. ah well. this is the lot of some of us.

the other challenge will be remembering their names by next week. I think I know who Ben is, Sarah, Shelly, Hoyt, Sandy, Casey, Jenny, Lisa, Jennifer and Micah. I'm not sure about the other seven names. this may be one of the most difficult things about my job.
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bad business

in other news, I'm not going to try to sell my artwork on ebay anymore. so far I have paid almost five times as much in listing fees as I've taken in in sales so even an economic nitwit like myself can see that the cost/benefit ratio here is not working out in my favor.

instead I'm going to put together some sort of catalog and order form for the various things I make and put it on my website. who knows if anyone even goes there anymore and who knows when I will have time actually to do this but if you use paypal as your go-between you don't have to worry about writing shopping cart code and can just layout your little catalog and given that I produce drawings at the rate of approximately one per year I don't think that I need to study database and web application design in order to create a listing of things I have for sale.

I do not know exactly when I will get to this or how it will even look but it will give me something to do during those periods of nervous energy where I can't sit still but can't really think anymore either.

why not take on another project that will never be finished. I love starting projects. I don't know what a finished project is.
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