December 30th, 2005



I'm sitting here without a shirt because I took off my going outside shirt in anticipation of donning my cleaning house shirt but then I sat down and then someone curled up in my lap. it's kind of cold in here but my legs are very warm. my shoulders though are not happy.

sandy comes home today so in a minute I will get off my ass and start cleaning. I will begin with the animals who need clean cages--most of them are fine but a couple are beginning to develop a bouquet and then I will sweep the hallway and stairs and then do the kitchen.

after that I need to finish this piece for the anthology that expanding_x_man turned me onto, the deadline for which is tomorrow. I haven't found a theme yet which is very much like me but I'm not sure how perverse they actually want the prose itself to be. well if they don't like it I will move on. next year after the dissertation is in and I'm a doctor and everything I can spend some time and effort getting the real life's work published. right now there are other things I have to do.

I guess I'll finish the grading tomorrow. I just have a few papers left--the ones I found yesterday--plus there are two more that should arrive in my email any time now. everything else is finished: participation grades, presentation grades etc. I could probably guess the quality of each paper before I read it but it's good still to write comments that actually pertain.

I should sit too but maybe I will do that after cleaning. sitting in a clean house is infinitely more enlightening than sitting in a dirty one.
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feng shui

parts of the house are closer to being clean than they normally are. this is the best we can hope for in this apartment. the house itself has built-in crevices and then the fact that we have about three houses' worth of junk in here means that we have created an infinite number of new crevices such that there are portions of the living room for instance that haven't seen daylight in at least 10 years.

but you know what? living in a place that is not spotless does not seem to be particularly unhealthy. in fact I bet I'm immune to things that you aren't.

when we move they will have to sandblast the place. well whatever. I'd love to put all the furniture out in the courtyard and do a deep cleaning sometime when I had ten people to help. I'm not good at orchestrating household projects involving more than just myself so it's not going to happen. this is one way in which we really need catherine back.

well so anyway I'm slightly less anxious and depressed now. it will be good to have sandy around again. I don't know when her flight is but I'm easing into that paranoid psychosis that gets you when you spend too much time alone. I mean I need a lot of time alone compared to the average bear but 24/7 for an extended period is not good for me. I start to lose touch with reality. too many things become questionable that I cannot myself answer for.

what now.
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