eriktrips

the plan was to be up by 7 so that I could get dressed and down to the zen center for the saturday morning meditation that I've gotten out of the habit of attending so I set my alarm for 6:45 and I swear I had only hit snooze twice when I woke up fully and saw that it was a quarter to 8.

wtf?

the clock radio worked a lot better before I realized the snooze button was functional for it, too.

so I didn't go. I'm not even dressed yet but will soon be sitting here on my own as usual.

I keep feeling like there's something I'm supposed to be doing today. I think that was it, though.

I should have gone to bed last night but I could not tear myself away from learning regular expressions for validating user input data. I realize this is probably the most exciting thing you've ever heard of and believe me it is especially when you are trying to debug the textbook's code. I don't know if the typos appear in the effort to convert print to online text but half of what they've got doesn't work but it's a learning experience to fix it at least. but so I think I know what + and * and . stand for inside and outside of []'s. ^ too. I'm still uncertain how to check for whitespace. \s didn't work for me but maybe I was deploying it wrong. how can you deploy someting like that wrong?

today I'm going to learn more of the same. I still don't know how I'm paying the rent this summer and I might need to do some advertising. "experience with php and mysql" doesn't have to mean extensive experience.

I will now go to the store and get that out of the way before commencing to study. in my neverending quest to micromanage my mood, I decided that if I work now and wait to go to the store I'm going to hit a 3pm lull where I will not know whether to go on studying or go to the store, and since I will have to go to the store at some point I would probably sit there vacillating for half an hour or more until finally I gave up and went to the store in a kind of annoyed/bored state that 3pm is famous for if you don't have something to keep you busy through it.

but if I go to the store now, also beating out the rain they say is coming but isn't even on the radar yet, then I can study monomaniacally until time to eat dinner, which is already purchased and in the freezer but what I need is cereal and milk and coffee the staves of life. I can't just wait till tomorrow as the evening bowl of cereal has become a fixture so that I'm eating small dinners just so I can have the cereal later.

I do not know what is going on with my appetite but a person could theoretically live on cereal and milk and coffee for a while so I'm just taking it as it comes.

I found out yesterday that the diet rockstar energy drink is indistinguishable from the regular so now I think I've found the solution to those 210 calories. not that I'm dieting, but I am aware of the little extras that might be adding to my "love" handles so-called. stuff is still shifting and lately my ass has gotten just about 1/8" bigger or something as it is just a little harder to get to that next-to-last hole in the belt. I'm hoping that my glutes are just becoming more massive. my arms gain definition just sitting here bathing them with testosterone so who knows what my butt muscles are doing.

first though I'm going to make a pointless post to lj.

I must have slept wrong as far as my elbow was concerned as it hurts more today than it has in a couple of days. reminding me perhaps to go all the way to walgreens for ice pack and wrap. it's been a bit chilly in the house because it refuses to warm up outside so I'm not thrilled at the idea of sitting here with ice on my body. guess first I should down some naproxen and see how that does. it actually helped a lot the other day.

will be needing shirt and shoes for this venture.

oh and I should warn you that it's been six weeks already and I will soon begin the laundry posts. the socks are running low so I need to strategize about scheduling. I might try getting up at 5am monday morning.

I consider that someone has stolen an hour out of my day off.

I know the hour doesn't officially disappear until early tomorrow morning but I try to make up for it the night before by going to bed at tomorrow's bedtime.

it won't work though because it is already 8:30 by tomorrow's time and I haven't even put on my pajamas and sat for the evening, which takes an hour.

besides that I am wide awake. maybe that will change after an hour of counting my breath.

I don't really like daylight savings time very much. in seattle where it stays light till 10pm around the solstice it is pretty cool just for that, but for the middle latitudes it really is just a pain in the ass to get used to the lost hour. granted I love gaining that hour back in october but really I'd rather not mess with it at all. when the sun is at the apex of its path, it should be the middle of the day. when it sets, it should be night. how difficult is that really? I suppose if I am going to be that way about it I should just get rid of all my clocks.

perhaps I should strive for a lifestyle that doesn't need clocks.