April 15th, 2006


public service announcement

passing this on for agoraphiliac. I wish I could go!

Reading: Tuesday, April 18

Diana George reads from her fiction chapbook Disciplines. George is a Seattle writer and the recipient of a National Endowment for the Arts award. This reading co-sponsored by the Performing Writers Fund.

Tuesday, April 18, 7:30 pm
Richard Hugo House
1634 11th Ave.



the cages are really all ok. it was the rabbits' litterboxes stinking up the place. so I changed those and now everyone smells fine.

the rest of the afternoon is mine to do as I see fit. what seems to fit is reading but the question is what exactly. I've told myself that I can't buy any more books until I read the ones I have which could be a twenty-year proposition and I think there will probably be more current things out by then that I will then have to catch up on. it's a never-ending job, this reading business.

the natural first choice is my computer books but even there I have a choice. I need to be able to be a whiz with css to make the pedagogy site work this summer and although I have a rudimentary knowledge of it and could probably just learn by doing I have this pervasive fear that I Don't Know Enough Yet.

sometimes I think I should go to a career center. not that I need a career but I do need rent money and whatnot. maybe they could help me to figure out what a rhetoric phd could do that either did not require teaching at all or required only part time teaching in a secure position, i.e., not having to teach someplace different every freaking semester like catherine did before she got her job.

anyway. off to enjoy myself.
  • Current Mood
    okay okay

snooze, lose

I did manage to finish the chapter on using javascript to validate form data but in the middle of reading it I took a three-hour nap sitting right here in my chair, propping my head up in various ways to keep it from hitting the desk, or leaning precariously over the side of my chair. each time I awoke I was all curled up but hadn't fallen on the floor or anything.

finally I gave up and put on my pajamas and was going to just go to bed when something on the internet distracted me and I managed to wake up a little. see I figured if I went to sleep at 5pm I could get up at 5am and do my laundry, before setting out to work tomorrow.

it is getting frustrating, I have to say, to always be falling asleep when I try to read for other than school or teaching. why it is I stay awake with the hard stuff is beyond me unless it's the related performance anxiety keeping me out of that consumptive alpha stage.

I perused city college's job board and course offerings to see if I could teach there part time and take computer classes and I probably could. the application process for the teaching positions looks dreadful and the idea of going before search committees makes me feel like throwing up and besides all that I just don't know if the teaching is the way for me to go but the money is promising and the courses should be easy enough to teach if I stopped trying to get students to understand my pet theories.

one of the positions wants demonstrated involvement with 'the Bay Area Art Scene'; I wonder if teaching at the art institute would count?

I think though I will sit now which will undoubtedly put me back to sleep which will position me for a pre-dawn awakening and laundry-doing. I'm thinking laundry on easter has to be the best idea I've had all year.

ok perhaps not.
  • Current Mood
    weird weird

bad week

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this will probably correct itself in time but I thought I'd see if I was officially depressed. I am! the funny thing (well it's not funny) is that the immediate attention does nothing. it's the long term effort that actually makes things better.
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    depressed depressed