May 13th, 2006

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paralysis

I haven't begun cleaning yet. this apartment is such a lost cause I don't know where to begin, but I guess the main goal is to get rid of as much hair and dust as possible.

and wash the dishes and make the bathroom a little less frightening to the uninitiated.

this morning I went and got cat litter at trader joes and it's actually $12 instead of $18 but still not quite worth the car price so I figured I'd stock up on other items so I got fizzy water and rockstar drink too for cheap although not so many of them that I had to find a parking place in front of my house to haul them in.

see the hard part about going shopping with citycarshare is parking the car and then dragging your stuff home. the garage is a little over a block away from our front gate, which would not seem so bad but our blocks are equal to a little over one-tenth of a mile. so whatever you buy you have to be prepared to sweat it out down mission street to get it home unless you want to try to find temporary parking closer which is its own trying ordeal.

I also went to bed bath and beyond with the standard 20%-off coupon because yesterday it occurred to me that I needed a certain small appliance and by last night I had completely forgotten what it was that I had decided I needed and this morning I still did not remember so I figured I'd take the coupon and walk around the store till I saw what I needed but I didn't figure it out that way either. I think maybe I was going to get a food grinder so as not to stress sandy's small one grinding the special items for my special tea but I'm not certain that was it. I did find a tiny cuisineart for $30 and I might go back and get it. it would be perfect for grinding the stuff I need to grind but I don't know what else I'd use it for.

in any case the tea party is not till after the dissertation is actually filed. same for the tattoo and the ring for which I haven't a clue where the funds are coming from. so I have some time yet.

my very first stop was nordstrom rack because I thought if I could find a shirt for less than $40 to wear under my gown I might get one and instead I got one to wear to dinner tomorrow night. I will just wear one of my white shirts under the gown--yes one of the ones with coffee stains but the gown will cover those. the question is what pants since with a white shirt plain black pants tend to make you look like a waiter and I'm not sure that's what I want to wear to dinner afterwards. I suppose I could wear a shirt with a pattern on it. it's too bad that my wardrobe has slipped over towards brown and blue--although I suppose blue would be fine since it is a UC Berkeley color--but then again that's royal blue and I don't really do royal blue so much as a baby blue or aqua.

too much to figure out. I could just wear jeans under I suppose. perhaps lisagail will help me to dress myself.

I did not have time to sit this morning because therapy was at 8:30 and then the car reservation and so I'm just now sitting still. I think I will sit and then consider how and what to go about cleaning. I feel like a nap and sitting will make me feel even more like one but that is what caffeine is for. I will probably go to bed early as I must get up and drive to the oakland airport first thing tomorrow morning and I don't actually know how to get there so must leave myself time. I've only been there once and I remember it as very very small. this would only make it harder to find.
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dust chaser

it is a good thing I am sweeping today instead of, say, in the morning. the house is so dusty that sweeping itself raises clouds of dust that have to be re-swept away once they've settled. I'd imagine it takes a good 12 hours before any dust-sensitive individuals should be allowed in. even so it is impossible to get rid of all the dust because every pass sends half of what you are trying to dispose of back up into the air.

I can't believe it is only 4. it feels like 7. I guess I'm not used to housework. I still need to shave my head and shower and I kept thinking my god it's almost bedtime but I suppose it is not. I might re-shave on monday morning but in case I don't have time tonight seems the best time.

the one thing that stresses me out about commencement of course is the sheer sociability of it all. once my aunt gets her I'll feel somewhat responsible for keeping her entertained and then judith is taking her exiting grad students to dinner tomorrow night which although all her students are cool and very nice and some quite good friends of mine it's still a large group affair starting at 7:30 so it will be lasting past my bedtime for sure.

then monday with me being ridiculously nervous about commencement and the anticlimax of sitting through two hours worth of presentations and speeches and god knows what before the fateful trip across the stage where I try not to trip or get tangled in my hood and then after that some sort of group movement across the bay in time for dinner at 7 which can't last too long because we have to be up at 6 on tuesday to get lisagail back to the airport.

then I'll come home to a stack of papers to grade. I think, though, that tuesday itself might be a decompression day.

oh and I was going to say what a huge relief it is to be able to remove your shirt when your upper body is dripping with sweat. cleaning the house always works me into a heavy lather which is as annoying as every other ridiculously copious sweat that wells up out of me due to the critical mass of meds I take almost all of which have 'increased perspiration' as a possible side-effect. it's almost all water and hardly smells at all which is a good thing at least.

well it's almost 5 now. phone call interrupted my discourse on sweat. better get going on the hair.
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