June 21st, 2006



ok I just ventured out to get milk and coffee and it is hot as hell out there. or at least it is going to be hot as hell--I suppose 80F is not so hot, but it is if it's 10:30am in San Francisco.

so that means we'll be staying inside today. I will unplug the laptop from its various parasitic devices and take it out to the living room and put my feet up and read the last few pages of my dissertation and try to think about how to get the end to pull itself together so that I can stop already.

I have to go to berkeley this week but I think it will be tomorrow. not that tomorrow is forecast to be any cooler but I need to sit still and get a chunk of work done today. I could go over after the chunk is done but I have to be back here for dinner with a friend and although that's not till 6:30 I just don't see making the 1/2 mile walk to and from dwinelle from and to the bart station after the asphalt has had the sun bearing down upon it for 12 hours and is now emitting heat from under your feet.

of course, that's what I'll have to do tomorrow. you can't win, really. you can only sweat it out.

I went to the doctor last night and my bloodwork was all normal except for a marginally high cholesterol so now I have to go back for a fasting draw which I will do first thing in the morning and then go to berkeley from there, pausing for the forbidden cup of coffee when you are doing fasting bloodwork. I'm not sure how I'll get to the clinic without coffee. I meant the bus does go right there, but just opening and closing my front door without coffee is a trial.

but so anyway there is no particular reason for my swollen ankles so she is also going to test for some other less likely things and see if anything comes up there. I should also go get my elbow x-rayed so we can talk about that but spending however many hours it takes to get x-rayed at sfgeneral does not sound like my idea of a good time. I could go to the student health center, but you have to pay for the x-rays out of pocket. sfgeneral does it for free.

to work. I've had my bowl of cereal and second cup of coffee so things are looking up.
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oh the other thing I wanted to point out was that I weighed 185 pounds on their scale. that's ten pounds more than last time.

you've seen the pictures. do I look badly overweight? I don't quite understand what is going on as I have stopped drinking and on average eat one burrito and two bowls of cereal a day and I walk at least a mile every day and probably more like two on average. five to six when I'm 'exercising.' and I don't think I look any different from last year.

I do drink whole milk now instead of skim. and the swollen ankles could be indicative of a more widespread fluid retention I suppose. maybe I'll not panic until after we get that taken care of, possibly with diuretics if my doc can't find any particular reason for the edema.

that'll be fun. peeing all day.

also I think I am getting denser. I'm not doing a thing to develop musculature but in the past 18 months I'd say I've gained definition and mass spontaneously.

well whatever. as long as I'm healthy and can stand to look in a mirror I guess things are ok.
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endurance thy name is sleep

it hit 90F in the mission today. tomorrow is forecast to be "3 degrees warmer" than today according to the weather underground.

oh great.

I wrote five pages this morning and then got that feeling that says you are about to sleep and you are going to sleep until dusk and I did.

well not quite like that but I did sleep most of the day away in the livingroom with a hot laptop on my lap. I really should have put the computer down but I didn't know where to put it as my feet were up on the table where it would sit if my feet were not there instead but so I woke up every hour or so and wiped the sweat from my forehead and went back to sleep. finally at a quarter to six I woke up and had to stay awake as I had 6:30 dinner plans but by then it had cooled slightly or at least to the point that I wasn't pouring sweat any longer.

I'm pretty sure this is shot poop-out. I'm due tomorrow but I've been extraordinarily sleepy for the past two days so I took it 12 hours early this evening. hoping for some energy tomorrow as I really need to go to berkeley although sleeping through the heat is not a bad way to deal with it. I think though that if I decide to put off going to berkeley one more day I will at least remove some clothes and put the laptop down before I slumber the day away.

sleeping all day will not mean a thing for my sleeping tonight. in fact after writing this I will brush my teeth and go to bed, in just my shorts, with the fan on. oddly I almost like sleeping naked on top of the covers. it's as though the heat is your blanket. it occurs to me though that the reason I like it might be that I always wake up cold in the middle of the night and have to turn the fan off and/or pull up the blankets. I don't like the heat blanket when it lasts all night long, if I remember correctly.

yeah so yeah it's hot and I'm sleeping. and writing, so everything is ok.
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