August 1st, 2006



this starting the day depressed cycle needs to stop. I wonder if it has anything to do with it being shot time which I keep forgetting when I don't have a pile of paper and a computer and a cat on my lap.

I'm stressing out about the million and one things it seems I need to be doing but I can barely get to one and a half per day. my therapist says I need to just work through them and get whatever I can out of the way and that's what I'm trying to do but no matter what I am doing I feel guilty that I'm not doing something else.

and I waste a fair amount of time trying to decide between what to feel guilty about every morning and then again in the afternoon.

the trick used to be just do something. I try that but it doesn't help the guilt.

anyway. ok I have to do something.
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