eriktrips

today I can do whatever I want.

I am not sure what that will be. I should sit. I had to go get my drugs first thing this morning which is why I have not already sat.

then what. read for pleasure? I spent all day yesterday taking buses to and fro so don't have a great hankering to be out and about especially since I don't have anything like money to spend to make it fun. yesterday late afternoon I found myself at usf at the same time as the fog rolling back in and of course because I had been out running errands all day I was soaked through with sweat and so because I was freezing my ass off I took the first bus I saw when it was time to leave which was a 5 which I took all the way downtown and was going to stay on till the very end of the line and then get on a 14 at the very beginning of the line in order to get a seat but it was a trolley and around third street the driver managed to send both of the trolley rod things off their wires and waving about in the air so I decided to get off there. this was on market street where the road is completely straight. I'm not sure what you have to do to fuck up your trolley wires on market street but this driver found a way.

so then I got on the 14 and came all the way back home from third street. still got a decent seat.

but yeah I've had enough of buses and going places for a couple of days. it's too bad. this morning's driver gave me a transfer good till 2:30. yesterday they were barely giving me the requisite 90 minutes.

I feel slightly burnt out. can you tell?

I just realized that I have to go to berkeley to pick up my paycheck; of all the millions of times I've asked for electronic funds transfer none of them ever apply to any other situation but that specific one. crap. I have to go get it because we are already late with the rent and I certainly can't go get it monday.

crappity crap crap.

I'm going to sit first.

the paycheck at least was there and sufficient to pay rent and leave some over for things like shoes and cat food--the staffs of life.

there went the day. I can still sit and read for a little while and think I just might as soon as I'm done saying whatever it is I came here to say which really I've already said so I could shut up now and be done with it.

at this point I enter a whole new financial realm in which I have enough money to pay the rent, the utilities, my therapist and a bankruptcy lawyer. I still have to figure out how to pay enough to school to get the hold lifted from my registration but I might be able to do that in a month's time which will free up another paycheck and get me insurance and guarantee me a timely degree when I file.

I'm going to investigate the properties of ginseng all by itself in the next day or two. the monster drink leaves me a little nauseated possibly because of the extra shot of caffeine which I've never really found useful after 4pm anyway it just makes me jumpy and spaced out by then but if I can take plain old ginseng without getting anxious like I used to it could be a real boon.

anything. anything at all to get through the stein awake.