guiltyor maybe I did. maybe when they enter my universe it is all instantly my fault.
sometimes when I look at Jackson I just feel terribly sorry even though he's healthy and happy and suffers very little. he might suffer some day and my inevitable inadequacy in protecting him from such a thing is difficult to accept. and now I'm going to be responsible for another one.
this insta-guilt is not necessarily a bad thing and I'm not really complaining so much as remarking how this sort of thing gets spread around from life to life.
