it is not necessary to decide ever. in fact this lack of necessity is precisely what I think of as the divine.
in fact this is what mercy consists of. at the edge of what is said is the possibility of saying and the falling back on that possibility is the heart of compassion. once everything is said and history is over mercy is no longer possible. this may be why I can never be a christian. if the word is fulfilled the universe is cold and dead to me.
don't mind me if you have a different take on the whole thing.