as the time wears on I just get more depressed which isn't exactly atypical for me but I didn't expect to feel this bad for so many hours. why this morning I took books with me to school thinking I might read them after class but instead I sat in my office listening to gloomy music through my little laptop speakers. no one at school knew quite what to say but we carried on.
I haven't felt this shellshocked in a long time. I have no idea what to do now.