energeticinterestingly enough in my dreams i am never with a group of people which would naturally result in my feeling comfortable walking in anywhere but rather i am alone and in a milieu where being alone is perfectly acceptable.
i remember though nights where i would just go in alone i would decide where i was going and why and i would just go there like i belonged there and everything always turned out well. that was half a lifetime ago and i tell myself that i have about as many years left as i have lived so far so i could very easily do everything all over although there are some things i would want to skip.
so what keeps me from going in alone again like i belong there.
