I profess after all to want to become a well-known author and although I would like that to happen spontaneously and in an instant such that I can then lock myself in my room and write, sending missives out into the world which are received with raves and hollers without my having to do anything further I have tried hoping and hoping for that sort of thing to happen for at least 25 years now and so far that plan has not worked overly well.
so I guess I have to "pay my dues" like everyone else.
if I went and paid some tonight, would any bay area types show up and clap so I didn't feel like a freak among freaks?