nervousI have a few hours in which to decide all this. I tried to keep track of what I've already read but it's getting confusing because usually I take about twice as much as there is time for and read just part of it but as far as I can tell I never note down exactly what I don't read. if I read the same thing over again I don't suppose it would be a great tragedy since it was last year that I last did this and who is going to remember.
I would like to think I can rely on my blazing wit no matter what but really as much as I do love to perform I still am generally up there in a panic and wit doesn't always stick around for panic.
I remember piano recitals and dreading the moment of the first note. I was always told that I seemed remarkably calm and I would seem that way because my mind would be racing and I would be pretty much incapable of speech. god what if I made a mistake? what if I got up there and forgot the whole piece? what if I played so badly that everyone started to laugh?
these things never happened.
