I guess I haven't said anything for two days. how unlike me. I've been working when it seemed necessary and avoiding work when it seemed possible but today it is not at all possible but rather very necessary.

the hell of it is that I did not remember that daylight savings time switched off last night so I set my alarm for 7 and did not notice until I'd had a bunch of coffee that it was actually 6. this is fine as I will probably be sleepy by 7pm and so could get up at 3 to prepare for class if I wanted. of course by class time I'd be ready for my friday evening beer so that might not work out so well but on the other hand it could work out very well.

I'm still sleepy even though I went to bed at "9" last night. is there any way to get around this generally dozed-out state that I go through every morning? I know that some would say eliminate coffee to eliminate the up-and-down nature of the caffeine cycle but you must understand that caffeine is an extremely important component of my meds regimen and until someone tells me-credibly--that it might kill me I'm not going to give it up.

suddenly I remember a vague dream about empty cups. it must have been a nightmare but I don't recall much other than the sticky film at the bottom of the empty vessels.

ok I'm going to try not to sleep through meditation now. I'm going to have to start doing it in the afternoon if I don't shape up. I mean the naps are nice but they aren't the point.

well whatever gets me through.