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another 200mg of ibuprofen and a bowl of cereal are helping. you migraine experts: do migraines typically respond to ibuprofen? my headaches usually do, no matter how severe. this morning's headache was the worst I've had in a long time but 600mg is doing the job.

I know I could look this up. why I probably will even.

I don't feel like doing much though. I'm not sure that hunching over my drawing board drawing little lines and shapes on paper with a high degree of textural detail is necessarily indicated right now. perhaps I should read. although that involves the same sort of concentration I think it would be less in degree.

it's either that or take a nap. I just got up two hours ago. but the weather and the blecchy feeling make napping look very attractive. I hate wasting the time though; there is so much I could be doing!

I will sit now and see what comes up. not that anything is supposed to come up or that is one sits without aiming at anything in particular but anything at all can happen. it's interesting that way in which you don't really know what is going to occur to you while you are trying to pay attention to just sitting and breathing. in some ways the most interesting thing about meditation is not some state you attain but the several and unpredictable states you pass through, or that pass through you. in zen at least, I think this is partially the point, although one doesn't name it as a point because it is essentially pointless in that it does not descriminate between one thing occurring to you or another. you're not supposed to be looking for any particular occurrence or even any occurrence, for it may happen that nothing at all occurs to you but you would still be doing what you are "supposed to" be doing.

that, too, is interesting.

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expanding_x_man
Dec. 19th, 2005 02:30 am (UTC)
I get migraines, including the ones with the aura and loss of vision. I hardly EVER get those, but about two years ago, they started coming suddenly, and now- nothing. But, I get headaches anyway...

If I treat a migraine right AS it starts, like right away, aura or not-- it will go away without too much intense pain. But, I have to catch it right away, and Ibuprofen works.

Yes, that is what sitting (zazen etc.) is about- being and not getting to any states- it has to do with awareness.
fu_le_bear
Dec. 19th, 2005 03:19 am (UTC)
"unpredictable states you pass through, or that pass through you"
For me it's like passing through a sphincter or one of those doors in the sci fi movies that open and shuts in a spiral (kind of like those 70's style coin purses that you pinch to open) or like having a mini seizure. I always get a little afraid and start shaking - like I'm about to lose the last bit of sanity I'm holding onto.

I like the little meditation I learned a couple of months ago where you don't necessarily relax - you just take an inventory of where you are at physically and emotionally. I don't know officially what meditation is, but this seems to work well for me.

I still haven't gone to the Zen center here. I keep putting it off.
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