so far the birthday is going ok. I have plans to meet people at the cafe/pub up the street where we can all decide what sort of high we all want.

to make my experience complete I want to:

give myself my shot
sit
paint
shave my head
shower
put on new shirt I bought with money I don't really have
pants too.
go to cafe

that should pretty much take all day. tomorrow it's back to the grindstone until April.

I have not spoken to lisagail yet today so don't know exactly how things are going but I am trying to keep in touch by email so as not to get in the way unnecessarily. I still don't know what to do and am beginning to suspect that it's just the way these sorts of things are. there isn't a whole hell of a lot you can do but love the people who are still here. so I'll do that.

happy my birthday, everybody.