okayspring break is over. good god that went fast. I only made it out of the city to santa cruz but the campus there was almost like a national park and we spent all day hiking up and down the hill it is built on the side of so there was even something like a wilderness trek to be had.
since december I'ver written about 40 more pages and I don't feel any closer to being done. I finally jumped into Levinas with both feet yesterday and once I get through him it's just a quick jaunt over to Gertrude Stein and that can be short and sweet I think. if I get that far. I could probably just stop soon but if I don't get to Gertrude Stein then I have to write a completely new intro and which will take more time? I don't know.
my old boss is in town with her daughter looking at universities--this kid I've known since she was six and I can see where having kids would only reinforce the speed at which time flies. it looks like we will be having dinner tonight so I'd better cultivate an appetite. that's usually not particularly difficult but still I could stand a little exercise so maybe a walk later will help make room for whatever I stuff in there. it will be very good to see them--I suppose Kris is one person I don't mind diverging from my orbit for.
I really need more money. I really don't have time to work more than I already am and still write. I am hoping that once the dissertation is done I can come up with enough ways to make money without undue pain that I can at least start traveling again. really I just want to get down to the desert and up to seattle but neither seems doable right now. yeah I do want to go to amsterdam but I also want a hysterectomy and some kind of lower surgery and I don't want to wait till I'm 60 to get them.
while sitting I kept thinking about the movie and the way things are going in the US and the world and getting really angry and then I'd say to myself 'politically frustrated thinking' and go back to counting my breaths. I hope this movie wakes some people up but I fear most will think it an outlandish fantasy. maybe I should get back to making those tracts. I got hung up on making drawings in illustrator when I couldn't find suitable line art online. I'm a little slow with the pen tool. I could use my little amateur-class wacom tablet but the pen gives you smooth lines the first time so why draw a bunch of wiggly ones that you then have to straighten up?
the question of the day is: shower or just get dressed?
