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Apr. 10th, 2006 at 8:01 AM

it's not that I expected my mom to come to graduation.
it's not even that expect to see her again any time soon. she probably will elect not to show at grandma Elsie's funeral when that day comes because we all know I'll be there.

I can't really explain why it is upsetting to find out she is going to her "grandchild"'s birthday party instead.

but it is.

Current Mood: upset

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annie_r

Apr. 10th, 2006 03:21 pm (UTC)

i think it's very understandable. she has chosen another 'child' over you, decided that this important event in your life is not important enough to overcome her fear, and that hurts, no matter how old you are or that you knew she wouldn't make the trip even without some excuse (and she would likely have made one up if needed.) your dad will probably do whatever she does. it is truly their loss, especially if they cut themselves off from seeing other relatives because of your presence.

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eriktrips

Apr. 10th, 2006 09:39 pm (UTC)

yeah there is something about her going to play pretend family with another family when she tried having one of her own but when one of her own kids turned out different from her she couldn't deal with it.

I mean everyone has to make family for themselves and my brother and I have not provided her with grandchildren so I don't really belittle her for finding some without our help but the gods help them if they turn out queer and/or unchristian.

I'm not sure why she thinks she'll do better this time around.

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ticktockmary

Apr. 10th, 2006 03:21 pm (UTC)

::nod::
I'm sorry. Wish I could help.

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eriktrips

Apr. 10th, 2006 09:40 pm (UTC)

thanks for the nod. yeah I don't know exactly what would help, really.

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ridethegallows

Apr. 10th, 2006 05:02 pm (UTC)

dude, that sucks a lot. i'm really sorry to hear that.

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eriktrips

Apr. 10th, 2006 09:41 pm (UTC)

thanks man. yeah it sucks.

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daisydumont

Apr. 10th, 2006 11:21 pm (UTC)

i swear, i'd like to go kick your mother in the slats. i wish you were my kid. :/

>she probably will elect not to show at grandma Elsie's funeral when that day comes because we all know I'll be there.

grrrr. grandmas elsie deserve nothing but the best.

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eriktrips

Apr. 11th, 2006 12:13 am (UTC)

in the slats.

I'm not entirely sure what this covers, but I assume it would be attention-getting?

i wish you were my kid.

you would have been a very young mother. but I'm game!

grandmas elsie deserve nothing but the best.

unite for grandmas elsie!

thanks, vicki. sometimes I'm amazed at how willing she is to cut herself off from so much. other times I'm a little pissed off.

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daisydumont

Apr. 11th, 2006 12:19 am (UTC)

i'm not sure where the slats are located on the body, but yes, i doubt one would miss it if kicked there. ;)

you deserve to be pissed off, but it does seem shocking that she'd rather lose you than accept you as you are. that's just evil, to me.

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