oh the other thing I wanted to point out was that I weighed 185 pounds on their scale. that's ten pounds more than last time.
you've seen the pictures. do I look badly overweight? I don't quite understand what is going on as I have stopped drinking and on average eat one burrito and two bowls of cereal a day and I walk at least a mile every day and probably more like two on average. five to six when I'm 'exercising.' and I don't think I look any different from last year.
I do drink whole milk now instead of skim. and the swollen ankles could be indicative of a more widespread fluid retention I suppose. maybe I'll not panic until after we get that taken care of, possibly with diuretics if my doc can't find any particular reason for the edema.
that'll be fun. peeing all day.
also I think I am getting denser. I'm not doing a thing to develop musculature but in the past 18 months I'd say I've gained definition and mass spontaneously.
well whatever. as long as I'm healthy and can stand to look in a mirror I guess things are ok.
you've seen the pictures. do I look badly overweight? I don't quite understand what is going on as I have stopped drinking and on average eat one burrito and two bowls of cereal a day and I walk at least a mile every day and probably more like two on average. five to six when I'm 'exercising.' and I don't think I look any different from last year.
I do drink whole milk now instead of skim. and the swollen ankles could be indicative of a more widespread fluid retention I suppose. maybe I'll not panic until after we get that taken care of, possibly with diuretics if my doc can't find any particular reason for the edema.
that'll be fun. peeing all day.
also I think I am getting denser. I'm not doing a thing to develop musculature but in the past 18 months I'd say I've gained definition and mass spontaneously.
well whatever. as long as I'm healthy and can stand to look in a mirror I guess things are ok.
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see I spent 35 years as an almost 5'9" 120-lb thin as a rail woman. until a few years ago I never had experienced a belly that rolls over the top of your waistband. gaining 60 pounds is not that surprising, I suppose, but it just makes me goggle at the difference between male and female bodies. I'm just so much denser than I used to be, and I can feel the mass as an increase in personal gravity almost.
once upon a time you could knock me over with a feather. not anymore.
an increase in personal gravity. that sounds good!
if i still had my old brando icon, i'd use it. it was sad how huge he got, and he hated it.
You look better than I would at 185. My cheeks stand out then like little round puffballs. The cover of my book, where I look fantastic everyone says, is around 150 lb. We are about the same height - between 5'8" and 5'9" (I'm 5'8 1/2" officially in stocking feet) so we could both lose a bit.
I have been going to the gym. That helps.
I bet you are getting some definition and muscle just from being on T this long. I did as well, over a span of years- I mean, seven to twelve years. Really. It takes awhile.
Maybe you need more protein and less carbs (cereal). I don't know, sounds like you are not overeating (to say the least)... It does get harder to lose weight as one gets older, maybe more aerobics and a bit of weight-lifting. I guess you could try different things and changes in diet and see what happens.
Really, you don't look bad. You look good, but - like me, I am sure --- you could look better. The main thing is how you feel. Few people are as vain as me, and frankly - they are lucky.
I would like to lose some, or rather redistribute some of the fat weight into muscle weight. I need to find out what is wrong with my elbow so that I can figure out a way to lift without injuring it further. I guess I need to get off my ass and go get it x-rayed already but spending a day at sfgh is not my preferred method of relaxation or toil, you know?