I really want to take all my clothes off and lie in front of a big fan. I know I should be happy I'm not up against the hills in the east bay where it will be hottest, but I am in the warmest neighborhood in the city so in some ways I might as well be over there.
never do today what you can put off till tomorrow, right?
on the other hand if I went to berkeley today I could take a two-block detour out of my way to go pee in a cup for the pee in a cup people. I'm getting really tired of doing it but I have to do it 8 times a year and we let my year slip almost all the way by before really dealing with this fact so I have to go like four times between now and the middle of july.
I need most to write, which I could do in berkeley but it puts me at the disadvantage of being away from all my books.
what I am probably going to do is remain shirtless and shoeless and go sit in the livingroom with my feet up with unplugged laptop and a couple of books and do some writing. I segued towards Gertrude Stein yesterday so today I should plunge in or at least look at the old essay that is currently tacked onto the end of everything as though it might say something like I want it to say and try to determine whether it really does, or which parts do. then I'd have to do the hardest thing to do in writing: stitch the pieces of the essay that are useful onto what I've got without having to write fifteen pages' worth of transitional devices.
I should work now.
when I have done all I can in that connection I will go to berkeley if I think I can survive the heat. I seriously became overheated the other day just walking to the corner store--body temperature regulation can be a problem with a couple of the meds I'm on--so if my body is going to be that way I might ought to stay in till 6pm or so.
either way I should put this water bottle in the freezer for a few minutes.