oh and not to try to outshine 
auditorium on her day, this is also a birthday of sorts for me: nine years ago today I got my first shot of T.
boy was I ever nervous. three days later I had a panic attack.
it was a rough start. but I'm so glad I did it I can't even begin to tell.
auditorium on her day, this is also a birthday of sorts for me: nine years ago today I got my first shot of T. boy was I ever nervous. three days later I had a panic attack.
it was a rough start. but I'm so glad I did it I can't even begin to tell.
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(btw, i saw a photo of the fairy butch the other day, with black hair! and quite a different facial structure, i thought.)
yes after fairy butch went off T, not a lot changed back. she even still has the fat distribution of a male: big belly, narrow hips. but maybe she was always built that way. I did not know of her 'before.' I don't really know her story at all, but the street gossip is that she had some sort of personal revelation on the eve of top surgery. I have no idea if that is anything like true, but it makes a good story.
yes, that is a good story! i'm all for personal revelations. though sometimes they can be pretty wacky. *g*
it's not exactly that I forgot, but the possibility of transitioning was buried under a number of other more pressing psychological disturbances. once I had those a little more under control, this just sort of floated up from my unconscious. "oh yeah. I'm transsexual" I told my therapist one day.
seeing the photos in that issue was an epiphany. I had no idea that hormones could work that well.
my therapist took it well, and although she was a little suprised it didn't take much effort for her to make sense of it. that's the way it's been with pretty much everyone I knew both before and after--they were all like, 'well you know? that makes perfect sense.' I guess I was pretty much a boy already.
suddenly a lot of stuff made sense and seeing loren's pictures was like being hit in the head with the possibility that what I had dreamed about for years was possible. I don't really know what made it seem so unreal to me before--other issues obscured this one so I didn't do any research--but immediately upon seeing the pics I recognized myself. that was the revelation.
That's the value of having images out there, they speak volumes.
Congrats on your T-birthday! I also had some kind of intense panic reaction a da or so after the shot. I was just so excited! And, scared, and excited! It was a revelation and a complete trip.
We are just the "nervous" type I think.... : )
Yea, about Fairy Butch, she is pretty damn masculinized now, although I have noticed some change back. But, I guess it's true, that a lot of it is irreversible. I do think that is true about the revelation prior to top surgery, interesting. Well, better safe than sorry. Those don't grow back!
And I'm a bit late, but happy boy birthday!
I think younger and younger people are coming to recognize themselves as trans because there are more visible role models now. people really do need some sort of reflection to be able to make sense of themselves, it seems.
It seems weird to me that I've known you long enough to remember when you started! How odd is that? And yet, not at all.
Do you ever come to the Gender Odyssey conferences? I've been to parts of them cuz it was always too expensive to go and I didn't know there were "scholarships," but this year we're finally going to get to go to the whole thing since Tish is being sent by her work. (Hooray for that!! Working at a place where 3 of the 3 employees are genderqueer has its advantages!)