i'm still online, but i've been isolating myself for a long time now and not posting much. i just assume other people have things that are keeping them busy on the weekends. i should be busier - there are a lot of things that just do not get done when i have weekend time to do them.

Saturdays & Sundays are usually when I am scheduled to work. Long hours. Lately I haven't posted due to depression, and just feeling exhausted. Also, this weekend in particular my anxiety has kicked in full force. I'm nervous about going alone to the Mazzoni Center downtown Philly alone.

I don't update very much because I'm boring and don't do things worth posting about. Also, I tend to think that the things I think about aren't worth posting about, even though they probably are. I'm very interesting, you know. But I kind of don't like myself (often and not at all) so I generally don't think that my life is worth pestering people with. I've gotten a little better, though, over the past few weeks. Although I will post tomorrow about the AWESOME Ray Davies concert I went to tonight. And about the woman who chased me down and asked me for my number. Talk about an ego boost!!! Also, a weird (maybe not so weird) thing - I have an ego the size of all of Asia, but no self esteem.

I've been isolated, and somehow my LJ and my Real Life parallel each other, though I would think the one would supplement the other.

Plus my various travails: back pain, knee pain, -- have kept me away from the computer.

Plus I feel social pressure: so few of my livejournal friends are posting, so why should I?