the glass guys never showed up. it turned out to be no big deal as I was busy working here all day and did not get to the point where I needed to be in berkeley yet. monday for that. but it was a little stressful waiting till past the time when I felt obligated to still answer the phone. I figured if someone called asking for me in a firm, hostile tone I'd just hang up. they'd call again a couple of times I suppose but I can outwait anyone.

by 11am I decided I didn't have to answer the phone anymore and I just kept an eye out the front window every time it rang to see if there were workmen hanging out at the gate. a couple of times I went out there to look but no sign.

I got a lot of work done.

it's interesting isn't it when your therapist is right. she suggested I take a couple of jobs that could be finished up in a day or two from my pile labeled 'overwhelming' and just finish them and I'd feel better.

I feel better.

I still haven't finished my dissertation and I still have two syllabi to put together but those are scheduled for different days. the syllabi. not the dissertation. it has to sit for a bit while I catch up and prove to myself that I can put in a day's work without dozing off.

today for instance I worked on a section of the pedagogy website as had been suggested by my 'boss' and I managed to sit in one place and code for 8 hours straight without hardly even a yawn. that is there may have been a yawn or two but I don't remember them and they didn't come with an 'uh-oh' attached.

so yeah it can be done. but I'm still unsure what my calling is.

I should go to bed so that I can perform similar feats tomorrow starting bright and early. that and because I'm kind of sleepy.