by 11am I decided I didn't have to answer the phone anymore and I just kept an eye out the front window every time it rang to see if there were workmen hanging out at the gate. a couple of times I went out there to look but no sign.
I got a lot of work done.
it's interesting isn't it when your therapist is right. she suggested I take a couple of jobs that could be finished up in a day or two from my pile labeled 'overwhelming' and just finish them and I'd feel better.
I feel better.
I still haven't finished my dissertation and I still have two syllabi to put together but those are scheduled for different days. the syllabi. not the dissertation. it has to sit for a bit while I catch up and prove to myself that I can put in a day's work without dozing off.
today for instance I worked on a section of the pedagogy website as had been suggested by my 'boss' and I managed to sit in one place and code for 8 hours straight without hardly even a yawn. that is there may have been a yawn or two but I don't remember them and they didn't come with an 'uh-oh' attached.
so yeah it can be done. but I'm still unsure what my calling is.
I should go to bed so that I can perform similar feats tomorrow starting bright and early. that and because I'm kind of sleepy.