well that's not true. I've been more anxious and it sucks but between flying tomorrow and needing to make sure I take the right things (books, paperwork) and leave the right things (catfood, swiss army knife) I'm all worked up about how to do today. I could just go do laundry with the rest of the mission I guess although that's not a very relaxing activity. I think lisagail's suggestion that I bring a bag of dirty clothes and was them on monday in their in-house washer and dryer might be the way to go with that one. I'll need mostly to wash socks and various types of wicking tshirts including the ones from old navy that I bet the wicking part washes right out of since it is a 'treatment' and not a fabric blend.
I emailed the airport and they answered almost immediately that I can bring my laptop and ipod in my carry-on luggage as long as I'm not flying British Airways. I was surprised to get such a quick answer; I guess it is an advantage of having an airport that sits atop the silicon valley. so although I'm not worried about those anymore I'm still kind of worried that the rules will change overnight. I know the answer would be to call in the morning but as I remarked to my nurse practitioner yesterday afternoon the klonopin is relieving much of my social anxiety but it doesn't have me on the phone yet.
I'm going to have to put my face lotion in my checked bag I guess. I think it's the only liquid I need to take besides testosterone and I might just give myself a really early shot tomorrow and leave it at home. prescription meds are exempted of course but the less hassle the better.
anyway I've got a klonopin under my tongue and another working its way through the hot cereal and milk I had for breakfast so hopefully soon I will be relaxed enough to start figuring out what I want to wear (and wash..) while I am there. a week generally needs two outfits. I mean I can wear the same thing for seven days in a row at home but away I do like to have some leeway in color and look. I think I will take a blue outfit and a brown outfit and then I can also mix and match. I will take one lightweight jacket in case of chill at night. I think I might take all of my silk underwear because it does not take up much volume and then I can wash it all and be done with it.
I'd like to be taking the train but there wasn't really time and money for that. I hate going coach and will likely never do it again unless I absolutely have to.
perhaps an hour of meditation would be a good thing. couldn't hurt.