in any case I'm trying ginseng and a leftover xanax to see if I can get that calm energy that generally I can obtain by simpler but less legal means. if the worst happens and I fall unconscious till 6pm, I still have tomorrow morning to write up the syllabus in such a manner as to appear meaningful to my students instead of in its current incarnation. I've already chosen the diagnostic essay text for usf and have a day to figure out what it will be for the art institute.
I hope this all works. all of it. the drugs, the classes, the dissertation that has been waiting for me for a month, all of it. I need to jettison some responsibilities after classes start if I am ever to finish. december is going to come rushing up like a freight train. I just hope I can find time to do laundry and shave my head.