Erik (eriktrips) wrote,
Erik
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this

sometimes i draw lines. (i have to come up with a voice for this place. it seems somehow indicative of an excess of self-absorption to be going on with i-this and i-that all the time but yet after all if this is to be the moment of autobiography i really don't see how i can refrain from doing so. or maybe i can almost see it but it doesn't look quite right so i don't take it up quite yet because to take up a voice that doesn't look quite right yet would be to risk being badly clothed or worse badly undressed. yet i doesn't strike me as proper clothing either or at least it seems unbecoming but what else after all do i have so here i go running with it. what else after all do i have.)

sometimes i draw lines. sometimes i draw lines because what is more proper to making a mark than making a mark and being done with it or rather never being done with it as there are always more lines to be drawn. but what is more proper to the mark than the mark or rather what is more proper to the making of a mark than the making of a mark. making a mark and not the mark. what is more proper to a making of a mark than making a mark. incessantly. (it occurs to me also that why should anyone anyone at all care at all about what i have to say about what i am doing and for that reason i should dispense with i to make what i have to say somehow a bit more outreaching and a bit less insular. what do i do but exclude certain ones and include others or perhaps more properly exclude all others but one and how uninviting would such prose be. such prose as i. the problem then could be stated as how to make of the i more congeniality or at least a modicum of susceptibility. (i am going to cheat now by saying that i am already congenial and susceptible but the question might be how do i say so. i am already congenial and susceptible but i don't know yet how to say so.) the question then is one of congeniality and susceptibility when it comes to the drawing up that i do. (maybe this is no longer a problem but saying so seems still to be one. or maybe it is still one as not all have yet lost their faith much less talked about losing it. i meet so many others who do not seem to meet me. i am not always already congenial even and especially when i am a man of faith. i try always to be congenial. i am already congenial. there is no use trying as i cannot help it. the question is one of saying so to men of faith.))

sometimes i draw lines. sometimes i draw lines because what is more proper to a making of a mark than making a mark and being done with it or rather not done with it at all but making and making a mark. do it again. ok i will do it again. do it again. ok i will do it again. (who said that. did i say that.)

sometimes i draw lines. sometimes i draw lines because what is more proper to a making of a mark than making a mark and being done with it or rather not for there are always lines to be drawn and drawn. sometimes i draw lines because drawing and a line seem to be the same thing or that is seem to be the things that differentiate things that draw up distinctions in making distinct a line to be drawn. sometimes i draw lines that draw up the paper with them and eat it in a way such that line is paper and paper line in a way such that the carrier of a line is and is not a line itself. (i am already congenial and susceptible and in that way not at all proper.) what is more proper to a making of a mark but a making of a mark that eats paper and is eaten by paper. what is more proper than that than eating and being eaten.

this could go on.

it probably will.
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