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this morning I was trying to drive a car that turned into a bicycle across the border between Seattle and Vancouver BC (in my dream geography all of northern WA doesn't exist--or maybe Seattle is where Bellingham is in waking geography) when I started to hear KFOG come in over the car/bike radio and I thought very routinely oh that's a Seattle station and it comes in particularly well up in Vancouver and I listened for a few minutes before actually waking up and realizing that my clock radio alarm was going off.

that rarely happens. I've set the volume as high as I dare (not so high as to wake the housemate, in other words) because at lower volumes I will dream that the radio is on, know that it is actually my alarm clock, but be unable to wake up to turn it off, which is one of the most stressful dream scenarios I have: knowing you are dreaming and wanting to wake up. much like you cannot force yourself asleep but must allow yourself to drift there, I find that in order to wake up I have also to drift off from the world of my dream until I lose consciousness of it. then my brain can make the switch and I can wake up.

whatever that's worth. you cognitive science people get on it and tell me what's going on at the threshold between dream and reality and why it is you have to relax and let the one go in order to enter the other.

I got up early because my att dsl started three days ago and I hadn't had time actually to set it up yet so I did that and what do you know but everything worked without a hitch. I have not one clue what earthlink's problem was unless att was doing something dastardly to the network in order to drive customers back into mommy's arms. I have the 'elite' superfast dsl but I'll have to test it to see if it is giving me the speeds advertised. these routers you are supposed to leave on for ten days at first in order to "optimize" your connection. I don't know exactly what goes on there. I'm not mister network guy so much beyond getting windows machines to talk to macs through a router.

then I went over to b's house where he led me through some testing of some database querying code all written in C# which I'm not really familiar with but it is similar enough to VisualBasic that one can keep up if only just barely while someone who knows exactly what he is doing goes and does it, explaining where necessary what is going on. my brain lasted just under four hours at that when severe glucose deficiency hit and I was suddenly unable to follow plain english syntax very well so I left and picked up big old protein and sugar bar and walked home from the haight feeling like I was going to collapse until I was almost home when some weird second wind hit even though I'd never had a first one. so I went and got more water and then came home and I've been piddling around taking quizzes and stuff ever since although what I should be doing is downloading big files and streaming large multimedia files and whatnot but later for that.

the goal tonight is to get to bed before I fall asleep. in order to facilitate this, I am now going to stop writing.


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Jul. 23rd, 2007 07:14 am (UTC)
Seattle/Vancouver Dream Analysis
Vancouver, B.C. ? Your dream MUST be about *Me* ! :-)


This is my Piscean intuitive analysis of your dream:

You have likely never driven from Seattle to Vancouver, therefore the northern part of WA does not exist in your mind. I can tell you it's a pleasant relaxing drive, since I have done if a couple of times.

You are driving towards the Canadian border - this represents your dissatisfaction and fear of your current Gov. Administration, and your wish to escape to a better place.

The car turns into a bicycle after you cross the border - this represents a return to simpler, less technologically advanced times. Your psyche interprets Canada as Utopian (compared to the U.S.) - time moves slower, people are nicer (no road rage b/c everyone is riding bicycles), and you believe Canadians are more concerned about the environment. In your subconscious, Canada is "Pleasantville".

How'd I do? :)

P.S.: If you ever do want to visit our less-than-Utopian city, open invitation to crash at my place.

Jul. 23rd, 2007 05:36 pm (UTC)
Re: Seattle/Vancouver Dream Analysis
your interpretation might not be far off. :)

I have actually driven to Vancouver several times and I think that it may be that the drive was much shorter than I expected the first time--I mean, you're going to Canada: it should take a long time. but it's just a couple of hours from Seattle.

it may also reflect my anxieties about 'middle america' which, although western WA is generally liberal, still does exist to some extent between metropolitan areas even there. or it may be that I see Seattle and Vancouver as being similar--although they're not, really, except for their political outlook. Vancouver is much more international and cosmopolitan, although Seattle is international but just very laid back. Vancouver seems like a real city; Seattle still feels like a small town.

but in my unconscious at least they are both surrounded by snowy mountains and are often cold and icy, which is a good thing in my book (in fact it snows less in the real Seattle and Vancouver than it does in the cities of my dreams. something about north=snow that I think I was brought up with from the very beginning).

but yes I do see Canada as somewhat more Utopian than the US, although I know things are swinging more conservatively there, too. still, public health care is something that any humane wealthy country should give to its citizens. and when the US becomes a dictatorship under GWB, Vancouver will probably be my first stop on my way out of North America. depending on how things go, I might stay there, unless there is some sort of Anschluß between the fascist US and Canada. I can't really see that happening, but you never know.

thus I do think that Vancouver might be a waypoint on my journey to Amsterdam or Berlin.

"Pleasantville" isn't quite right as it conjures scenes of 50's conformism in the US, but I do think that Canada is my escape pod.

I have to get my passport. I need to look up agencies in SF that can help me since I have a birth certificate that doesn't describe me anymore.
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