nervousshould i take this week off? to synthesize and relax and focus? or should i keep reading since there are still sizeable gaps in my lists? i mean how much more can i squeeze into one week?
well i should look over some poets for the american list.
i should reread some beckett and bataille for the french list.
i should finish the deleuze and derrida for the theory list.
and i should go over my notes on freud and lacan because they were so long ago i've quite forgotten what they said.
i mean i think i have enough to say without doing all this but my fear is that somewhere in the questions i get will be a requirement to discuss someone i haven't actually read or whom i last looked at seven or eight years ago.
in the meantime i am so jumpy i don't know if i will even be able to read at all.
i am not ready i am not ready i am not ready.
i guess i'm ready.
