the title is how life's little blows to the body sound. bff. bff. bff. bff.
today I feel like a battered man. for no particular reason except for all of them. I've been doing some excavating at the same time as trying to live and it is a delicate balance but not one I'm willing to give up. excavating that is in a way I haven't really done before and it's a little disorienting on the one hand but on the other it is a good thing but on the other other the more I look at what my life was the more astounded I become that I've survived it (so far) at all.
anyway. I'm kind of awake and not really full of energy exactly and I'm wondering if I should give in and nap. I'm trying not to become attached to any given pattern, you know, of sleeping, and just letting myself sleep when I feel the need. so perhaps I should go to bed. thing is I was just getting to where I had some daylight waking hours. it seems whenever I get that far my body has to reset to nighttime. maybe I truly am a vampire.
well I need to be up in like four hours anyway. I probably won't sleep that long. I guess I'll give in and give a nap a whirl.
weird body.
today I feel like a battered man. for no particular reason except for all of them. I've been doing some excavating at the same time as trying to live and it is a delicate balance but not one I'm willing to give up. excavating that is in a way I haven't really done before and it's a little disorienting on the one hand but on the other it is a good thing but on the other other the more I look at what my life was the more astounded I become that I've survived it (so far) at all.
anyway. I'm kind of awake and not really full of energy exactly and I'm wondering if I should give in and nap. I'm trying not to become attached to any given pattern, you know, of sleeping, and just letting myself sleep when I feel the need. so perhaps I should go to bed. thing is I was just getting to where I had some daylight waking hours. it seems whenever I get that far my body has to reset to nighttime. maybe I truly am a vampire.
well I need to be up in like four hours anyway. I probably won't sleep that long. I guess I'll give in and give a nap a whirl.
weird body.
- Current Mood:
drained
Page Summary
Designed by 
chasethestars
chasethestars
Comments
jeffrey's body prefers night time too, and now ted's does. it makes early-morning rising pretty painful. did you get in that nap?
I did nap and now I am up and ready to face--the day? the night? all I need to do is stay awake for therapy at 9 and then I'd really like to go pick up my amazon deliveries from ups. I keep sleeping through their business hours.
Good for you for excavating and I think it will bear fruit, so to speak. In time...
Take care --