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bff. bff. bff.

the title is how life's little blows to the body sound. bff. bff. bff. bff.

today I feel like a battered man. for no particular reason except for all of them. I've been doing some excavating at the same time as trying to live and it is a delicate balance but not one I'm willing to give up. excavating that is in a way I haven't really done before and it's a little disorienting on the one hand but on the other it is a good thing but on the other other the more I look at what my life was the more astounded I become that I've survived it (so far) at all.

anyway. I'm kind of awake and not really full of energy exactly and I'm wondering if I should give in and nap. I'm trying not to become attached to any given pattern, you know, of sleeping, and just letting myself sleep when I feel the need. so perhaps I should go to bed. thing is I was just getting to where I had some daylight waking hours. it seems whenever I get that far my body has to reset to nighttime. maybe I truly am a vampire.

well I need to be up in like four hours anyway. I probably won't sleep that long. I guess I'll give in and give a nap a whirl.

weird body.


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Jul. 31st, 2008 11:21 am (UTC)
i think that excavation will pay off in the long run, but it must be exhausting. it takes a lot of courage to do it.

jeffrey's body prefers night time too, and now ted's does. it makes early-morning rising pretty painful. did you get in that nap?
Jul. 31st, 2008 02:07 pm (UTC)
I think it will pay off too, and you are right about the exhaustion and the courage--I haven't had the courage to do it before now. better late than never, I suppose.

I did nap and now I am up and ready to face--the day? the night? all I need to do is stay awake for therapy at 9 and then I'd really like to go pick up my amazon deliveries from ups. I keep sleeping through their business hours.
Jul. 31st, 2008 09:10 pm (UTC)
So, you are on vampire time now too! Oh well, I think you are right not to stress on it too much. You were a very, very early riser for so long.

Good for you for excavating and I think it will bear fruit, so to speak. In time...

Take care --
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